In the process of starting this blog I have find myself pulled in several directions mentally and instead of being inspired to write it’s actually got me stuck.

I find myself dying to write and yet feeling totally stuck and not able to get it out. Incredible fears rise up…

“No, don’t write about that yet, it’s too much too soon”

“Why would that be interesting to people?”

…and so on.

Then I feel like a REAL winner (can you feel the sarcasm?) for starting something up and then immediately curling into a ball of fear.

The old lies about pleasing people and putting on a good show have reared their ugly heads to demand I listen to them.

You see I used to look at life through the lens of a good girl, trying hard to do her best to make God and everyone else pleased with her. It nearly destroyed me.

Maybe this is where I start.

By saying the truth out loud.

I’m stuck!

Much better!

Now…can we move on?

God is doing some clearing away in my life.

Like clearing away the leaves left from fall and winter, He is clearing away the debris of lies in my mind.

The ones that say:

“Try hard…”

“Do more…”

“Be more…”

“You can’t..

“You should…”

All they do is keep me stuck, going in circles looking at the mess.

Instead, God is clearing that away and showing me that in Him I am loved and accepted. In Him I am free.

“You were getting along so well. Who has interfered with you to hold you back from following the truth? It certainly isn’t God, for he is the one who called you to freedom.” ~Galatians 5:7-8  NLT

I am free. Period.

I am loved. Period.

Ahhh, yes!

All that clutter cleared away to see the space that is available to…well…

to BE.

“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. If you do this you will experience God’s peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand.                    His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.” ~Philippians 4:6-7 NLT


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